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[ | | Tuesday, December 25, 2007 | | ] |
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MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYBODY! : )
I hope everyone is having a wonderful one.
May we all enjoy the company of our loved ones and fill our tummies with huge amounts of food! : P
Y'all take care, and have an incredible day!
A special heartfelt greeting to S & K. ♥
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| eighteen. |
[ | | Thursday, November 22, 2007 | | ] |
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1.11 am: I'm eighteen now. EIGHTEEN. Wow. I'm old. Haha. Hmm.. I am now what society would call an.. adult. Noooo, I don't want to become an adult yet! I enjoy being young. : D
Mmm.. I don't really have much to say -- well, I'm too sleepy and lazy to think of anything to say! Haha. Think I'll head off to bed now. Still got to prepare for school in 5 hours. : P Good night to me. : )
eta: This day was just great! I was able to spend it with my family, my friends [BABAJEEBABA!].. and the special person in my life right now. It'd be too long to elaborate everything here. I just really want to thank EVERYBODY who has made this day a really special one for me. Thank you, really. : )
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| Fallin'. |
[ | | Monday, September 10, 2007 | | ] |
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Karen... ang hirap mong di mahalin..
You make it easier for me to completely fall for you, day by day.
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| kiddie love. |
[ | | Sunday, July 29, 2007 | | ] |
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Last June 16th, I posted an entry about an outreach exposure activity thingie that we did. Today, I shall write about yet another one which happened just yesterday. :)
Like the last time, I enjoyed myself again. We went back to our host family's home. Caren, who's 8 years old, acted all pouty around me. She even told me, "We're not friends anymore. I break up with you!". I gave her back the Puss-in-Boots sympathetic look and asked her why she felt that way. She responded by whispering, "It took you so long to get back here. I've been waiting." [Man, she makes it sound like we're lovers that had to go their separate ways, but promised to get back together! :P] And, I tried to make light out of it saying, "I've been here like ten times, but you were always in school whenever I got here." [Okay, so maybe I shouldn't have lied, but I didn't know what else to say!] She still wouldn't stop the pouting, so I let it go. After around 5 minutes..
Me: Hey, c'mon, Caren, let's be friends again! Please? Caren: In one condition.. Me: Mmkay.. what's that? Caren: *whispers in my ear*My birthday is on December 7th. Promise me you'll be there. Me: I can't make any promises, Caren, but I'll try my best, okay? Caren: *pout* Me: Friends now? Please? Caren: Oh fine, okay! Me: Give me a hug? Caren: *hugs me tight*
Ugh, I felt bad and guilty and uncomfortable then. I couldn't just tell her I wouldn't make it 'cause I would hate to break her heart like that. She kept on reminding me about it the entire time we were there. I really really hope she won't continue to expect me back because I most probably won't be. :(
On, a much happier (?) note, Caren and her 4-year-old brother, Agan, started dancing up against me! NO LIE! Caren pulled me up from the couch, stood like an inch away from me, and started undulating her hips mad. If that wasn't enough, she hooked her leg around my legs, held my waist and arched her back! And, then out of the blue, Agan starts dancing onto me! I mean, definitely not gonna place any meaning on it, but damn are those two WILD!! I just stood still the whole time, very amused, and very.. aroused! LOL. I KID, I KID. :P And, yeah my two partners, Vern and Joyce, pretty much just kept on laughing their butts off!
Well, so I had a good time with the kids, Caren, Agan and MacMac [who by the way, dances hella cute! His expression when he does is PRICELESS!]. MacMac, who's 3 years old, kept on sitting on my lap, so what I did was the like horsie thingie and moved my thighs up and down -- he loved it! Agan, on the other hand, kept on slapping me [he slaps EVERYBODY!], and then running away giggling, so I tackled him and tickled him to no end! :P Caren pretty much kept on calling me to sit beside her whenever, wherever. Oh, and she told me 2 secrets! We even did a pinky swear! Lol. Oh man, and one time, when we went out of the house, all of them wanted to hold my hand! Agan and Caren even kinda bickered 'cause of it. And, I joked like, "Hey, hey, guys stop that.. I have two hands for everybody! :D"
When it was almost time to go, all three kids were just bugging and playing with me, tryna be all cute and stuff. I felt kinda bad that they weren't playing with my two groupmates; I didn't wanna hog the kids, but they kept on going near me! When we had to leave, they all gave me a kiss and a hug! Too damn sweet, made me go all awwwww inside. BEST MOMENT EVER! I was really really touched. ♥ Again felt kinda bad when one of my groupmates kinda joked, "So we're kinda like outsiders here.. don't we get kisses, too?" Thank God the kids gave them kisses also!
Hmmm.. so, I overheard my foster mom talking to my two partners about how the kids kept on going near me, how there are just some people whom kids wanna stick to. That honestly made me feel good. Probably why I feel comfortable around kids.
I really do enjoy how kids seem to naturally gravitate towards me, even without having to do anything special or extra to get their attention. I really don't mean to brag or anything when I say that. I'm just letting you guys know that that's one of the few things about myself that makes me really smile. :)
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| pick-up. |
[ | | Sunday, July 22, 2007 | | ] |
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Hmm, okay. So, I went to an appliance store with my sibs and my cousin to buy a rice cooker. While everybody else was busy looking around and my eldest sis surveying the different brands of rice cookers, I stood still in front of this huge Sony flatscreen TV. I was pretty much awed by the brightness of the pictures; I would pretty much bet that they looked way better on screen than they actually do in real life! Anyway..
I was minding my own business, when this guy salesclerk stood right next to me. AS IN, right next to me. He started off with the line, "Hi, Miss! Do you live here in Makati? Because I think I've seen you before." UGH, he gave me the cheesiest smile ever! I told him that I didn't live near. He pretty much continued on and asked me about which school I went to. I initially told him my highschool when it suddenly hit me I was already in college! [Haha, smart one, Karen!] He asked what course I was taking, talked about our school's basketball team, and complimented my "excellent math skills" being that my course is Eco-Accounting. From the moment he opened his mouth, I knew where this dude was headed, but well.. decided to play along with his lame-ass ploy anyway! :P
So, our "conversation" pretty much went something like this..
Dude: Accounting's a hard subject. You must stay up late everyday! Me: Uhh.. not really. Dude: Well, do you like going out then? Me: Mmm.. nope. Dude: Your friends don't like going out either? Me: Uh-uh. Dude: Your parents strict? Me: Nope.. I just really like staying home. Dude: Ohhh.. so you're a good girl then! *cheesy grin* Me: *polite smile* Uhh.. yeah, I guess.
*awkward pause*
Dude: So you must have a boyfriend back in your school? Me: Nahhh. Dude: Ever had one before? Me: Never. Dude: Really?? Me: True story! Dude: Yeah?? How did that happen?? You're such a pretty girl!! *cheesy grin* Me: *polite smile* I'm not looking to have one yet. Dude: Hmm.. so what's your name? Me: Karen. Dude: Karen? Karen Davila like the reporter? *cheesy grin* Me: *smiles politely and shakes head side-to-side*
*awkward pause 2*
Dude: Are your parents here? Me: Nope. I'm with my sibs and my cousin. Dude: Where are they? Me: That kid you were talking to awhile ago is my brother. Dude: Ohhh. You don't look alike. Me: Yeah, we all don't look alike. Dude: So, you're the youngest? [*DUH. My brother obviously looks a lot younger than me! Haha.] Me: Nope. Two younger brothers and two elder sisters. Dude: That boyish girl with the striped shirt is your sister? Me: Yeah. Dude: It's a good thing you're not boyish like her.. you're so pretty! *cheesy grin* Me: *polite smile* ..yeah.
*awkward pause 3*
Dude: So.. what cellphone network do you use? Sun, Smart or Globe? Me: Globe. Dude: May I have your number? *cheesIER grin* [*WHAT???] Me: Uhh.. nahh.. my dad will get mad. [*Silly excuse, haha!] Dude: So he IS strict! Me: Only when it's the right thing to do. Dude: Ohhh. Why not give me your number then? Does your dad read all the messages in your phone? Me: He doesn't. I won't because I don't even know you yet.
YADDIYADDIYADDAH! :P
Hmm.. so, I pretty much wasn't stupid enough to give out my digits, and nice enough not to give him the wrong number! That makes me so proud of myself! LOL. He was giving me those cheesy grins all throughout, and the pig dude's lucky I was polite enough to smile back. Haha! Nawww, but it was funny 'cause like, I could see his co-workers mumbling and giggling with each other while they looked our direction!
I don't know if I should feel insulted or flattered or disgusted or creeped out or what. I'm sorry if this sounds mean, but it was rather amusing playing with the dude, him trying hard to make small talk and moving closer while I moved farther and whatever.
Okay, I'ma give ya some credit for tryin', but hate to break it to ya, babyboy, ya ain't gettin' any from this chick. Maybe if ya were hotter we coulda worked something out!
I'm not working towards being an arrogant biatch, but y'all get my drift. :)
DISCLAIMER: No ANIMAL [a.k.a. the dude!] was harmed in the course of the aforementioned event.
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| i love kids. |
[ | | Saturday, June 16, 2007 | | ] |
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God, kids give me the best damn mushy feeling inside!
We had an outreach exposure activity today. My foster mother didn't really have young children - most of them were already in college! It was just fortunate of me that she had two nieces and a nephew to take care of. One of them was a little girl, six years of age I think, named Caren [WHOO HOO, same name as mine! Only, hers is spelled with a 'C'! :P]. At the later part of the day, she started calling me "mama" [hahaha!] and kept on holding my hand wherever we went. When she had to leave ['cause she and her family were going to the department store], she gave me a hug, then asked me for a kiss! Awww.. she just really left me smiling.
Still during the outreach, I was walking around the community with my two other groupmates and my foster mother and her nieces and nephew when out of nowhwere, this little boy walked up to me and gently brushed his hand on my forearm! I don't know what that was all about, but it did make me smile, too!
Not going to elaborate, but suffice it to say that the outreach activity was a really rewarding experience [as it always had been]. :)
Now, back to the kids. The other day, I was at the supermarket with my dad. I was walking around the freezers when I bumped into this little girl. I immediately said sorry, and she just replied with a smile. I then stooped down to tie my shoelaces, and when I looked up, there was the same little girl, standing still and looking at me! I grinned at her, and she gave back the sweetest smile! She kind of giggled a bit, and then ran towards her parents. That girl was just sooo cute! After that, I was walking around the supermarket with the stupidest, silliest smile on my face. And yes, that was so totally the highlight of my day!
*sigh*
I've said it just awhile ago, and I'll say it again.. kids give me the best damn mushy feeling inside! :D
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| HAPPY! |
[ | | Thursday, June 14, 2007 | | ] |
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I'M HAVING SUCH A FUCKING GREAT NIGHT!
I don't know what I ever did to deserve all this..
now, it's getting kinda scary that things are going so well!
But yeah, I'm all too happy and giddy and hyper to type down a long post!
THANK YOU S. [I love the package, but I love you more!] AND K.! :D
p.s. Thank you, Lord, for tonight. I needed this. :)
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| incomplete without you. |
[ | | Friday, June 8, 2007 | | ] |
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Everybody needs a little bit of distraction.
And, you're the sweetest one I've got.
In fact, you're the only sweet distraction I've ever known.
If distractions were even just half as wonderful as you, I would want to have them all.
Can't you see that you make me terribly happy? I would hate to know that you're feeling guilty over doing so.
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| american idol. |
[ | | Thursday, May 24, 2007 | | ] |
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I think Jordin deserved the title. She's a great singer, got a great personality, got total star quality, and more than that, she'd make for a real good role model to the younger ones, too. So, yeah.. she's real cool.. WAY TO GO HER! I'm glad she won, I'm glad for her.
The finale show didn't really excite me that much, but it was alright. The Blake beatboxing with the other guy was pretty awesome, and I totally loved the final song and the way Jordin sang it. And when she couldn't sing the last lines 'cause she was tearing up, I was just like.. awwwww. She was the same way last night, too! So cute and sweet.
Not really in the mood to say much more. Overall, I was satisfied with the results. Blake's a real cool guy [but pretty much threw his chances out the window with the way he sang the final song :(] - and I like him - but Jordin just really deserved it more.
Hate to sound like Paula, but they all really did a great job [whoo hoo, MELINDA!] and I hope they'd all go places.
Ech, so not looking forward to go to school tomorrow.
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| go out on a date, dad. ;) |
[ | | Saturday, May 19, 2007 | | ] |
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I feel like my dad has been feeling really lonely lately. My mom passed away 6 years ago, and while that may have been quite some time now, losing [who I would think] was the love of his life has got to be tough on him still.
I've heard from my sister that one of his closest cousins has been trying to hook him up with available women. Also, she said that my dad has mentioned that the girl his father had been setting up for him until he fell in love with my mom is still single. So, the way I see it, my dad has women he could date if he really wanted to. But, that's just the problem. It seems like he's half and half -- wanting to date, but not really.. if that makes sense.
I don't know what's holding him back, really. I hope he doesn't think that we wouldn't approve 'cause I don't think any of us sibs would mind if he did start dating again. I think it's actually gonna be cool. It'd be good for him, and it'd be good for us, too. No one's ever going to replace my mom, but hell, I'm cool with a nice, loving, caring stepmom. Just none of 'em wicked ones! Besides, I want my own share of mom-daughter moments, too. Yes, I've had alot when I was young, but I want them moreso now that I'm aware enough to fully appreciate them. Call that my selfish reason for wanting a sweet stepmom. Anyway.. let me get back on track.. so, yeah.. my dad's free to go out and have fun. BUT, in the truly bizzare event he brings home someone who's got even the slightest hint of being a floozy, BOTH of them are sure to hear from all 5 of us!! Hey, don't look at me like that.. we just watching out for him. :D
My dad is far from being a dud. He's got quite a number of good things going for him.. how about we start with one of his amazing daughters.. ME! Nawww, I'm kidding. But, really.. my dad is a kick-ass, great lawyer.. he's a good father.. has an intelligent head on his shoulders.. and all that good stuff y'all single women are looking for. :D
And, no.. I'm not pimping my dad. But hey, holla if you want a date with a 52-year-old catch! *wink*
ETA: I am making a promise to myself that the person I'm going to spend the rest of my forever with and I would live a very healthy life because I honestly don't want to end up in the same situation my dad is in right now.
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| too sweet for words. |
[ | | Monday, May 7, 2007 | | ] |
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Ohman, you just so totally made my night, Poohbear! Like, really. WOW. You continue to amaze me, you know that. :) Smiling like the big-ass loonie that we are right now! So totally your fault, by the way. :P
I ♥ you. As if you didn't know that yet! :D
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| D and K all the way! :) |
[ | | Monday, May 7, 2007 | | ] |
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AWWWMAN! Dustin and Kandice didn't win first place! I'm disappointed that they didn't 'cause they're only my FAVORITE TEAM EVER! :D
But, it's still okay.. at least Dustin and Kandice got second place, and that's the highest an all-girl team has ever ranked! Eric and Danielle were the least I wanted to bag the prize out of the Top 3, but then again, I've to hand it to them.. they actually played pretty well and did overcome a lot of setbacks. That team has so much luck, dammit! I would've been alright if Charla and Mirna won, though, 'cause they can be really funny at times (they have the funniest arguments! and Mirna's varying accents depending on the country!), they're good players, and I've been waiting forever for an all-female to win!
I really favored the beauty queens. I know there are people who don't like them, but I do. I think they're more than just skin-deep beauty. They're bubbly, competitive, smart, outgoing, friendly.. they're always smiling, too! And, they make such a great team because they communicate with each other so well! They never bitch at each other.. well, maybe except at the finale, but they got over it quickly, so.. doesn't really count! :P Oh, and I won't forget that time when Kandice gave the little girl in Mozambique a free manicure when she totally didn't have to, and didn't bother worrying the possibility that that could cost them the race.
Mmm.. so the finale was the only time I saw Dustin and Kandice have some sort of argument between them. I felt kind of sad when I saw Dustin teary-eyed. I was all like, "Awwwww!!" when..
Dustin: You're saying a lot of hurtful stuff right now. The fun of this Race is doing it with you. I'd rather not do it if it's like this.
They reconciled soon enough, and Kandice responded with..
Kandice: I'm not going to drag this out any longer. We have a race to run sister.
HA! THEY'RE AWESOME! I LOVE 'EM! :)
Oh, oh, oh! When Dustin and Kandice were running towards the finish mat (and they saw Eric and Danielle were already there), one of them said, "We didn't win. Damn." LOL. Best line ever!
Yes, I ♥ The Amazing Race! Been watching it since the first season, and I can't wait to see the next one! :D
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| letters. |
[ | | Saturday, May 5, 2007 | | ] |
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I was sorting through my things when I stumbled upon letters my mom have written for me.
Sitting on my bed, I unfolded the creased, wrinkled papers. I then read a few lines down, and the next thing I know, I find myself crying over messages penned by my mom, over memories I have of her.
Every once in a while, I feel guilty for not thinking of and missing my mom as much as I think I should. But, feeling those tears warm my cheeks gave me some sense of relief. It's comforting to know that deep down inside, a part of me (no matter the size) will always remember my mother even after an eternity she's been gone.
I can't really imagine how everything would have been if my mom were still here. Probably more complete. Life would definitely be different. And, I'm supposing I would be different, too.
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| done decision. |
[ | | Saturday, April 14, 2007 | | ] |
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I finally went with the course I knew I had greater interest in because there's nothing I could dislike more than having to do something I do not want to be doing.
And, so, four days ago, I confirmed my slot in DLSU-Manila. Yep, I'm taking up Eco-Accounting. It feels good to be able to make a decision, and stick with it - I haven't given as much thought about Management Engineering anymore since then. Yayyy, me! :)
I hope that when I've entered the corporate world (as a hotshot account executive.. ha! I wish! :P), I can look back at this and smile for I made the right choice for myself.
To all those who read and commented on my entry about the college thingy, thank you so much. I appreciate it.
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| i can never ever hate you. |
[ | | Thursday, April 12, 2007 | | ] |
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I forgive you.
Told ya I only needed 24 hours. :)
Nothing changes, poohbear.
I still love you the way I always have.
Now, smile for me, okay?
You know how much I love it when you smile.
Dimples and all.
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| smiling don't come easy. |
[ | | Wednesday, April 11, 2007 | | ] |
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Of all the people to break my heart like this, it had to be you.
It just had to be you.
I still love you, though.. Schnookie-wookie Love Monkey.
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| college confusion. |
[ | | Monday, April 2, 2007 | | ] |
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I am seriously confused right now. And, no, it's not gender confusion.
I really cannot decide which college to go to, and I have barely 2 weeks to do so! I used to be all-set with where I'm going to study and what I'm going to be, but it seems as if any speck of clarity has blurred.
I am choosing between Management Engineering (in ADMU) and Eco-Accounting (in DLSU). Before, I was all "accountancy-accountancy-accountancy" - that was when I haven't realized yet the great promise that ME holds. I've been going back and forth, trying to decide between these damned courses. I've even resorted to coin-tossing upon the suggestion of a friend (Hi, Steven!), but we all know that isn't really a smart idea - really fun, though!
I am a very hardworking, responsible, mature, and determined person, so I believe I can do either one. What I cannot stand is the thought that I might find myself ten-fifteen years from now doing something I don't really enjoy, and I'll succumb to endless what-if's and what-could've-been's. If that happens (God forbid!), it'd be one of my greatest disappointments. Right now, that is my biggest worry and fear.
I never thought I would be in this tough situation. This, right here, is the most crucial, life-changing decision I will have to make in my 17 years! Ahhhh.
To the person reading this right now - especially if you know me well (character, strengths, weaknesses, and all) - I ask for some advice, opinion, tips, help, or anything you can offer. I know this is something that I have to decide for myself, but I will greatly appreciate any help I can get.
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| congratulations, DLSZ Batch 2007! |
[ | | Saturday, March 31, 2007 | | ] |
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I, along with my batchmates, have finally graduated.
Everything has not entirely sunken in, and I feel my words will fail me in expressing my very sentiments, but for now, I shall give it a chance.
This is but another end to one chapter of my life, but with this end comes no sad goodbyes, only sweet hellos. I'm looking forward to experiencing new things, reaching new grounds, soaring new heights. It's going to be hard leaving what has always been, but I am comforted with the fact that it will always be my past and will always be there for me to look back at.
As I reach my final day of high school life, I breathe in the moment, reminisce about friends, schoolmates, teachers, events, countless memories in my alma mater. I smile, and I prepare myself to take a step further into a brand new beginning.
Watch out world, here we come!
I sincerely thank my teachers, friends and classmates. To the rest of my batch, I thank you, too. Each one of you has been part of my life in Zobel. You, in one way or another, have influenced me to be the person I am now. You taught me things I would have never learned on my own. You stuck with me in both my highs and lows. But, more than all those, you all have made my past 11 years not just a meaningless trip but a fulfilling journey. My deepest gratitude. I will all miss you.
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| muddy footsteps. |
[ | | Saturday, March 3, 2007 | | ] |
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I walked to the store with my little brother to buy some afternoon snack. We were going to head home when it started raining. We decided to sit by a café until the rain completely stopped, but we couldn't wait any longer, so we started walking back home once the rain lightened.
It was kind of a relaxing feeling, the droplets of water hitting my skin. My brother and I were kind of amused by the huge dry spots along the cement pathway only to look up and realize that they were seated under huge trees.
The shortcut we took was all grass and soil. I started jogging a bit - I don't exactly know why - and it felt pretty good until halfway through, my steps got noticeably heavier and stickier. I stopped, checked out my slippers, and there it was.. two inches of mud stuck to their undersides! When my brother saw this, he just started laughing hard and continued jogging forward. I tried to dislodge the mudcake by kicking away, and ended up sending my right slipper into the air, landing a good 5 feet away from me! My brother just laughed even harder, and I was laughing myself. I was standing by my left foot, and I almost lost my balance from all the laughter. My brother did help me out in the end, thank God.
When we got to the main road, we started dragging our feet to remove the sticky mud off our slippers. You could see four long lines of brownish color along the side of the road thanks to us. We got home safe, yet really soaked.
We had our snacks, we walked under the rain, we laughed our way home, and somehow, I found that really fun. Maybe it was getting to spend time with my brother, maybe it was the relieving effects of the rain, maybe it was the food. I guess maybe it was all of those.
I'm singing in the rain, just singing in the rain What a glorious feeling, I'm happy again
Those lines have never felt so appropriate.
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| i'll keep it safe. |
[ | | Saturday, March 3, 2007 | | ] |
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Dear Feather Snowtree,
You say I hold the key to your heart. Even gave me something to symbolize it. Color me deeply touched.
I'll keep it safe. I promise.
Love, Hex Goblinfrost
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